Thursday, April 17, 2008

Matrix Re-loaded.

The Oracle: Candy?

Neo : D'you already know if I'm going to take it?

The Oracle: Wouldn't be much of an Oracle if I didn't.

Neo : But if you already know, how can I make a choice?

The Oracle: Because you didn't come here to make the choice, you've already made it.You're here to try to understand why you made it. I thought you'd have figured that out by now.

Neo : Why are you here?

The Oracle: Same reason. I love candy.

Friday, April 11, 2008

Atheism

I call myself an atheist? The definition for atheism in the pedia is "Atheism, as an explicit position, either affirms the nonexistence of gods or rejects theism" in which theism means "Theism is the belief in the existence of one or more divinities or deities".the definition concludes only one thing - NO GOD. Now i dont want to get into all my reasoning abilities with fat words to derive conclusion and make the readers either think that i am a jerk or i am an intelligent jerk. This is just my stand and i arrived here.

I beleived in GOD or i was forcefully made to beleive god. It's due to family and also we were strugling a lot to settle, so i was expecting some miracle to happen in my life, atleast-least of my dreams may come true(a bicycle to ride, a little big
house, one set of uniform\shoes per year....etc.,) These struggles kept me always low when it comes to a common place. I am little less in everything, to annul that i used to speak loud, speak crap, volunteer for everything(to cover-up my mind). At these times, i strongly beleived that GOD is there. Few inicidents where i felt like, it's GODs GRACE: Here's top 5 fully-felt god moments

1) When i got admission in TVS lakshmi school.

2) when i found my lost cap in cricket ground.

3) when i got a bi-cycle in 8th std.

4) when my father went singapore.

5) whenever my Headmaster asks to goto class when i was punished at the gate for not paying fees in time....


Down the line, as life evolves, characters around me changed, good\bad times....all lead to a confusion on the existense of GOD. Several days, i revised the concept, re-lived few moments and finally i found a balance in my life for which i came to know GOD is not the reason. The reason is me, yes, for the above top 5 incidents, here's my conclusion:

1) i got into to TVS, i performed a fair enough in entrance(i was among top 3 in my old school). The main reason is that ,

TVS school introduced "shift concept" and they almost doubled their strength and made lots of business. no wonder i got into

TVS, it's mean from both ends!!!

2) i got my cap back, only because i cried for around 20 mins to the coach explaining its sentimental values(bought by my dad

from singapore) and atlast he asked a particular person to return my cap. I cried in front of 20 peoples , when i was studying 7th std, that's how i got my cap back!!!!

3) i got a used bi-cycle from my uncle, because he bought one more bike and he dont need the bi-cycle(ladybird). It was in post-mortem stage but also i loved that cycle...so it's just co-incidence.

4) My father went singapore, it's again coincidence, as he was trying for 7-8 yrs and finally one day he went !!!!!

5) My headmaster have softcorner for me as she beleived that i can add value to the school and also i was most disciplined(yes, beleive).she knows well that i will study well wherever i go , so to hold me she tried her best!!!!

Also i started observing my life that the output i get is directly proportional to input i give. so why to beleive some hidden entity, instead just do whatever u want. whatever ur mind says....I am master of my own deeds. let me live my life, u call me genius, idiot, moron, ignorant, cheat...anything, i am living my life.


I am responsible for my actions!!!!!!!!!! i am ready to face the challenge and lows in my life...I dont need GOD to do some

miracle in my life. So I am Atheist.(for me this is atheism)